Meet Mandy
I Didn’t Lose My Way
All at Once
I lost it in layers.
And each layer taught me something about integration that no book, training, or ceremony ever could.
The Real Story
I'm a former Founder and CEO who built multiple multi-million-dollar businesses, only to watch them crumble because I didn't know how to hold harm with compassion and understanding.
I'm someone who lost a 25-year friendship, moved to another state where I knew no almost one, only to end that 5-year relationship, and had to rebuild my sense of home from scratch.
I'm someone who spent months integrating a profound psychedelic experience alone because I didn't know help existed.
I'm someone who thought Tantra was "weird sex shit" and now understands it as one of the most powerful embodiment practices I've ever encountered.
I don't teach theory.
I teach what I've survived, integrated, and rebuilt myself with.
Where I Am Now
A few years ago, I couldn't tell you if my nervous system was regulated or dysregulated. I just knew I was having panic attacks and feeling bursts of rage. I literally needed to have a safe word with my dad (yes, it was “pineapple”.) People didn't feel safe around me, and I didn't feel safe in myself.
Now? I trust my body to lead the way. I trust my heart more than my mind. My unconscious patterns run me less than they used to—not gone, never completely gone—but I can work with them instead of being hijacked by them.
I'm still human. Still messy. But I know how to hold myself together while I fall apart—and I know how to hold you while you do the same.
That knowing didn't come from a book or a certification. It came from living through my own unraveling and learning how to integrate it without abandoning the parts that were inconvenient, uncomfortable, or hard to explain.
Here's how that happened.
I Learned About Integration the Hard Way: By Not Having It
Four years into running various CBD companiesies, everything started fracturing.
2018: My business partner betrayed the companuies through a scandal I handled with zero compassion. In defending him, I became the villain in someone else's story. That person still won't speak to me.
2019: Revenue contracted for the first time. I was 29, leading 40 employees, and convinced that if my business wasn't growing, I was failing. I equated company growth with my own worth. When the numbers stopped climbing, I didn't know who I was anymore.
2020: My 25-year friendship ended with seven words: "I don't want to be associated with you in any way." My foundation—my sense of home—crumbled.
2021: I moved to Austin with my partner, hoping a fresh start would fix everything. Instead, I watched us grow further apart while pretending we weren't.
I had abandoned my businesses because I'd abandoned myself first.
How you do one thing is how you do everything.
The Medicine that Gave Me Blissful Paradox
Photo: September 2021. Ayahuasca retreat in Cancun. My very late 30th birthday gift to myself.I went looking for a spark to reignite my business. What I got was eight days and seven nights of ego death, orgasmic encounters with the divine, and a soul-deep reckoning with every choice I'd made that led me here.
Night one: Bliss. Pure communion with God. Pleasure so expansive I didn't know bodies could hold it.
The morning after: Shame so crushing I could barely breathe. Guilt. Disgust. Embarrassment. Terror that I'd never feel that alive again—and equal terror that I would.
I asked the shaman what was wrong with me. I asked her to fix it.
Her answer? "Your sacral chakra is completely blocked. Try Tantra."
My response? "That weird sex shit? Anything but that."
Her guidance? "Kundalini might be a better place to start.”
(Spoiler: I eventually found myself on the Tantra path. And it saved my life.)
Four Months of Hell
For months after that retreat, I tried to integrate alone.
My partner didn't want to hear about my breakdowns. My one friend who did psychedelics just used them to escape depression—he had no framework for integration. I was wandering my apartment at 3am, Googling "how to integrate Ayahuasca," convinced I was losing my mind.
My business kept tanking. My relationship was ending (I just couldn't admit it yet). I was living in a city where I had no roots, spiritually awake and completely dysregulated.
It was torture.
I had insights. I had breakthroughs. What I didn't have was anyone who could help me turn revelation into reality.
The Question That Changed Everything
February 2022. I finally found a life coach who understood psychedelic integration.
In one of our first calls, he asked me one question:
"What would it be like to live without hope?"
It broke me open.
Not because hope is bad—but because I'd been using hope as an excuse not to act. Hoping my business would recover. Hoping my relationship would magically improve. Hoping someone would rescue me from having to make the hard choices.
In three weeks with him, I integrated months of solo struggling.
Within a month, I ended my five-year relationship.
Within two months, I forgave my mother for wounds I didn't think were forgivable.
Within a year, I'd started the Tantra work that helped me finally face the perfectionist wound I'd been carrying since childhood.
Integration isn't optional. It's also not instant.
This Is Why I Do This Work
Because I know what it's like to have a life-changing breakthrough and no one to help you live it.
Because I know what it's like to be spiritually awake and emotionally dysregulated at the same time.
Because I know what it's like to abandon yourself over and over—in your business, your relationships, your body—until you forget what your own truth even sounds like.
I'm not here to give you mystical experiences.
I'm here to help you integrate the ones you've already had.
Whether that's a psychedelic journey, a life crisis, or the slow, devastating realization that you've been living someone else's life instead of your own.
What I've Learned to Trust
My Body:
After years of body dysmorphia and shame, I can finally be naked with the lights on. I prefer water activities without a swimsuit. My relationship to pleasure keeps deepening in ways I can't explain—I can only invite you to find it for yourself.
My Daily Practice:
I don't collect modalities to decorate my identity. I integrate them until they live in my nervous system. Then I teach what works.
My Curiosity:
What this currently looks like is a lot of deep dives into Kundalini Yoga, Tantra, Human Design, Psychedelics/Snake Venom, Relationships, and intersection of all of these in my life.
What You Can Expect Working With Me
I won't tell you what to do. (You already know. Your body's been screaming it.)
I won't let you spiritually bypass. (Frameworks don't replace feeling.)
I won't rush you. (Integration happens at the pace your nervous system can handle, not the pace urgency culture demands.)
I won't perform certainty when I don't have it. (And I won't let you either.)
What I will do:
Reflect back what your body's saying that your mind is overriding
Hold you accountable to your own truth (not mine)
Offer tools that may work (because I've lived them)
Create a container where it's finally safe to stop pretending
This is slow work. Deep work.
The kind that changes your direction possibly forever, possibly just right now when you want it most.
My Training (Because Credentials Matter, But They're Not the Whole Story)
Psychedelic & Trauma Work:
Trauma-Informed Practitioner (Trauma and Somatics)
Psychedelic Informed Master Coach (The Condor Approach)
Certified Psychedelic Coach (Third Wave)
Certified Bufo Practitioner (Kambo Healing Me)
Certified Snake Venom & Kambo Practitioner (Psychonaut Academy)
Mushroom Guide
Embodiment & Somatic Practices:
Somatic Breathwork Practitioner (SomatIQ™)
Certified Kundalini Yoga Teacher (Yoga Alliance)
Tantra Levels 1 & 2 (Ecstatic Hearts™)
Sexual Empowerment Training (Ecstatic Hearts™)
Awaken as Love (EverydayTantra™)
Level 1 Graduate (International School of Temple Arts - ISTA)
Business & Education:
Former Founder & CEO (9 years, 3 multi-million-dollar companies)
Bachelor's in Education and Political Science, Minor in Psychology
I spent years collecting these certifications, thinking they'd prove I was worthy.
Now I know: My worth isn't in my credentials. It's in my capacity to hold myself—and others—through transformation.
Why People Work With Me
Not because I have all the answers.
But because I've lived the questions.
I know what it's like to need external permission to do what you internally know is right.
I know the stomach-drop moment when you realize you're playing a role in the Oppression Trap Triangle and you can't unsee it.
I know the fear of stepping into the unknown. The fear of failure. The fear of not being truly seen.
I also know there's another way.
You don't have to integrate alone.
You don't have to perform certainty when you're terrified.
You don't have to abandon yourself to keep everyone else comfortable.
You can choose differently.
And I can hold you while you do.
Let’s Talk
If this resonates, book a free consultation.
We'll talk about where you've been, where you are, and whether this work is right for you.
No performance. No pressure. Just truth.
Your body already knows if this is a yes.
"What would it be like to live without hope?"
The question that ended my attachment to rescue.
The question that gave me back my power.
The question that taught me: No one is coming. And that's actually good news.
Because it means you get to be the one who saves yourself